Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Letting Go

I needed to get this off my chest - so I sent a letter. I still can't talk to my grandma until I cool down some more. Hopefully she realizes the severity of her actions. I've already sent this in the mail, and I feel much better.

Grandma Ginger –

I’m writing you this letter because I’m too hurt to talk to you about this. I talked to mom about why you left my wedding. Mark and I cannot express how hurt and disappointed we are that you skipped out on the rest of our wedding day. Everything ended at 7 pm. The last dance, us going around to visit everyone, throwing rice, the get away car – all this was missed. Not only did you miss out on these things, but you took away my mother on the most important day of her daughter’s life.

I thank the lord every day that I didn’t hear about what you said or why you left until after the wedding and honeymoon. If I had known on that day, I would have cried and it would have absolutely ruined my wedding.


Alicia

Monday, May 24, 2010

No More!

No More Room Mate!!! Married Life will finally begin! I’ve had a room mate for about a month since the wedding, and as of today he will be gone for good! I can finally get my house back in order, unpack some wedding gifts, rearrange the craft room, and do some spring cleaning. Not only that, but I will be living with my husband instead of my husband plus a room mate. Oh, happy day!!

No more cooking for more than two. No more empty soda cans and taco bell cups lying about. No more sharing my dining room with a computer. No more sacrificing my living room for a cot. No more sharing the bathroom with anyone else besides my husband. No more washer and dryer madness. No more having to wear clothes all the time. No more chitter chatter every time I come home. No more supporting a grown child. No more of that room mate smell on my couch. No more going to bed just to sleep.

Needless to say, I am very excited and relieved to have the house all to myself again. And if you’re reading this, room mate, don’t get mad. I still count you as a friend, and you are still a good person. I just want and need to start my married life with only me and my husband. You’ll understand one day when you meet that special woman you can’t imagine living without, and all you want to see is her.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Before I have kids...

I just found out that a friend of mine is pregnant – congrats to her! But, it got me to thinking… what would I do in that situation? It was unexpected, so the time will fly by for her. Next thing you know, she will be bringing a new life into the world. Goodness, there are so many things I want to accomplish before I start a family! I’ve seen a few “before I’m 30” and “things to do before I die” lists, and I’ve decided to make my own. This is a list of things to accomplish before I start a family. Now that life has decided to settle down (i.e. I’m not planning a wedding or waiting for Mark to graduate and get a job), I think I will have the time and support from my dear husband to accomplish my goals. Hopefully they aren’t too lofty.

-Visit a Psychic or Taoist mystic
-Go sky-diving
-Take a trip out of the country
-Go to college
-Buy a house
-Drive and own a motorcycle
-Make my own beer
-Paint something that’s worth hanging in my home
-Attend a major sporting event
-Commission a special painting
-Write a fan letter to Alan Rickman
-Go to a major concert
-Drink beer at Oktoberfest
-Spend a night in a haunted house
-Write my will
-Gamble at a Casino
-Play the lottery
-Learn to cook and bake from scratch
-Take swing dancing lessons
-Go to a play or the opera with Mark

I’m already working on the painting, and have tickets to the Lady GaGa concert this summer – so that scratches off a couple of points. Ha ha, there are only 20! I usually do what I want when I want to, so that probably makes for a more manageable list. I may add more if I think of anything, but this looks pretty good for now.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

How to start?

Here, I plan to let it all go - my insane thoughts about life, family, schemes, adventures, drama, EVERYTHING. So, let's get started.

I had a dream this morning that I was walking around the house naked and my room mate came home, seeing me in my birthday suit. I woke up startled. The first thing I thought to myself was "I won't be that careless until he's out for good... or at least lock the top lock on the door." Dreaming such things and ignoring my alarm clock put me behind schedule, so I jumped up and went into my craft room to grab my new shampoo - I had the urge to smell differently today. Guess what happened? I walked in on my room mate getting dressed. I saw the poor guy in his underwear (at least he was wearing that much).

I feel like I warned myself, and then ignored my own warning. My crazy dreaming mind was trying to tell me that what I was about to do was a bad idea. I should listen to myself more often. I eagerly await the day I can walk around naked freely and cook dinner every night in my underwear. I plan on making different aprons to match my different lingerie.

On to a more depressing subject. My mom and Grandma came late and left early on my wedding day. I asked my mom about it and she told me a very interesting story. Apparently, my Grandmother told her that my program said I wouldn't be opening presents until 9:00pm and that the party wouldn't end until 3:00am - so she just wanted to go then. Of course, I checked my program, and it said no such thing. (And who opens presents at the wedding? That's terrible etiquette...) They left at 6:00pm (I think) and my reception ended at 7:00pm.

They missed out on the last dance, final farewells and kisses, throwing rice, the get away car, and so much more. Which one is fibbing, and why do they feel the need to fib? I think I will just let this one go. If my own family feels the need to lie to me and skip out on my wedding, then so be it. Ah, well - I still love them all. Besides, I'm starting my own family now. ...And believe me - I won't be skipping out on my son's/daughter's wedding for any reason. If I'm dead, I will haunt the ceremony and reception, but damn it I will be there.

On a brighter note - I'm making stir fry with rice tonight. I love rice!